inspiration seeker

I seek inspiration,
I look where i think i will find it, and sometimes nothing seems to be found.

I am the type of person that tries to only follow there heart, listen to there passion and be lead by what seems to be my destiny.
I look for my destiny. where ever i go.
The biggest question now i ask my self is WHY?

Now, logic: I seek this because my past is full of things that are unbeleivable to most i think. I take the solemn walks around paris to think, find meanings, and ponder of my life.
What is coming next a lot of the time. How can a better myself, and this world around me.
Who is Olivia Clermont?

I try and find myself in creative outlets. Painting, writing, music all the usual things people use. Is this where i am going wrong?

Is a person born into this world with a plan? or is it just something that we beleive is true.
I think that people are born for a certain life. Discovering it is what we do everyday and how we pursue it is our own choice.
Free Choice. The roads we take, the times we decide to turn to just see a different street.
where does it dead end?

I ask myself if there is a fantasy attached to every reality. Is there an element of this we all make up to ourselves to make it seem better. How people perceive themselves and how we perceive the world as a whole. Fantasy is something important to all humans, its imagination and creativity. It's making the world "your world" having your own perception. If we all had the same perception then there would be no diversity, no personal meanings to things..
It would be Boring.

So,
I seek inspiration, in the streets of Paris.
Why?
......no idea.

have i found it?

no..

but i will not loose my faith.